can’t help but to compare this to the first book i’ve read by Nina LaCour, which was published nearly a decade before this one. can definitely tell the improvement both thematically and when it comes to the characters actually having depth to them. 

though if i’m being honest i really don’t know what i feel about this book! it took me a long while to get into it, especially with how boring i thought Emilie’s story was compared to Sara’s but also how weird Sara’s story was at first, dare i say some of it was even unnecessary in my eyes but who am i to say! also due to the duel pov it took me quite a while to relate to both protagonists. 

there are definitely intresting motifs in this story that I liked, ones of grief, loss and how each individual deals with them in a complete different way. but something in this book just wasn’t for me, unfortunately.

also i love cocktails i wish more of the book was cocktails talk but that’s just me