Heartbreaking honestly but some parts were quite disturbing and towards the end it was mostly very vivid dreams - which seems like a manifestations of his fears and anxiety surrounding desire, sexuality and mortality because he’s no longer in control of any of those.

It is one of those books that really makes you pause and reflect upon queer experiences at the start of the AIDS epidemic and a lot of their struggles that we would not have known otherwise.

He writes exceptionally beautifully about heartbreak, love, and loneliness in a way that really stays with you.  At times he speaks about the constraints of language but even then he does with so much of clarity and eloquence.

A worthy read.