Over 800 pages of trauma porn. Days of my life I will never get back. There were some good / touching / well written moments, but generally this book mishandles such important and sensitive topics to a point that I cannot in good conscience give this a good review. This is not “the great gay novel”— it is a depressing and poorly edited book that essentially illustrates that some people are beyond help and better off dead. Sickening. Do not waste your time.