3 stars.

this book was honestly mid - it definitely didn’t resonate with me the way i thought it might have

there was a lot of sex with miles and tate and while i could see glimpses of his secret burning desire for her and her struggle to act like she was happy with their arrangement, i felt like there wasn’t ENOUGH of their struggle. the good moments they had together were too solely sex focused (which i know was their agreement), but for me it wasn’t enough for me to really really want them to be together

the trauma miles went through with the loss of his son and close-call with rachel made it very understandable as to why he was so shut off for the longest time. but for some reason there was something about it that didn’t hit me as hard as i anticipated

i loved the writing style, i feel like colleens writing is very up my alley.

UPDATE: it’s been a long time, and i don’t like this book. 1 star. don’t ever think of it and when people mention it i have no urge to recommend it and rather recommend the opposite.