the whole concept of grief and how we're taking it as living creatures is fascinating. different people react in different ways and it was quite interesting to see Didion's way of going through something so heartbreaking. there were many moments in which it was as if she was describing my way of thinking regarding a person I've lost (although I can't compare them very much...). I think I mainly liked this book solely because I can relate to it and the things she was transcribing were very on point with my thinking overall but I can't say it really hit me hard only because I have yet to lose a person THAT close to me. 

some things I didn't quite get on were if this was a story based on

losing her husband ONLY or that specific thing AND her daughter being ill and constantly in hospitals. I wouldn't mind if it was both, but I was lost.

I loved her writing regardless. at some point, the language she was speaking regarding most of the medical terms was a bit too intense, and was getting overwhelmed because I felt as if I had to have graduated from medical school or have some background in the medical field to understand it all but at least she did her due to describe the stuff she was referring to. 

overall, I think that I would read that in the (hopefully) very far future when I start to lose people around me but for now the only thing I can do is sympathize and applaud her for getting up and dealing with how shitty life is for taking the people that we love the most.