A review by kassielovestoread
Acts of Service by Lillian Fishman

slow-paced
  • Plot- or character-driven? Character
  • Strong character development? No
  • Loveable characters? No
  • Diverse cast of characters? No
  • Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes

2.75

Do you know the feeling of standing by and watching a scene unfold (like a multi car pile up for example) and doing nothing at all to help, instead you stand there and gawk until it's resolved? That's probably the best scenario I can use to describe what I felt like reading this book. I wanted to crawl into the pages and rescue Eve and Olivia so damn badly. Alas, this is just a work of fiction so I could only read on to see if things got better.

This book was just so...weird. And not in a good way. The author unsuccessfully tries to be deep with these drawn out conversations about sexuality and none of it made any sense to me. At first I thought, maybe it's just me, I'm probably too dumb for this book. But now that I finished I can say with absolute certainty that I am not too dumb for this book, it's all fake deep nonsense. I kept asking myself: what is the point of this book? I cannot figure it out. It was also ridiculous how long each chapter was- at least 40 or so pages. And there were NO quotation marks in the dialogue, it drove me absolutely mad. I will never understand the significance of leaving out quotation marks! 

What is advertised as a novel about a woman coming to terms with her sexual identity quickly spiraled into a disturbing (but can't look away either) sexual relationship between Eve, Nathan, and Olivia. I don't want to give too much away in this review considering that that is literally the entire plot of this novel, but I was not comfortable with their situation. I kept hoping for a different outcome and I was really disappointed by the ending. And yes, I really think Nathan did it (iykyk).

Still, there's something about a chaotic book like this that left me wanting to read it anyway. I could've dnf'ed it- however there was something about Acts of Service that compelled me to stay for the shit show anyway. I can't really say if I'm glad that I did though, LOL. I would not recommend this book nor will I ever re-read it (once was enough, thank you kindly). I think there's much better books out there to explore that can take what this author tried to do and execute it way better.