while reading this my only thought was that namjoon would fucking love this book! it's contemporary and queer and sad and it gets deep into the meaning of life, he would totally love this!

 + this book very much reminded me of Conversations with Friends but a lot better and a lot queerer. :)
 
each of the four stories had a different specific feeling connected to it but i think what linked them all in the end of each one was the sadness and loneliness that Young was feeling. it felt as if I'm reading 4 different lives but after reading the author's note i got that they were the same person. they still felt distant but i quite liked that? 

it was literally the perfect book for me - short stories that were intertwined with one another, like a puzzle. i quite enjoyed that.

let's not also forget how unapologetically queer this book is! with how discriminated the Korean lgbt+ people are and how they are being treated in their own country i think the world needs more Korean literature that has queer people in it. also the fucking translator's note! oh my god. if i didn't cry while reading the book itself, what made me really teary-eyed was Anton Hur talking about being at the places that the book described, being one of those people, one of us. recognizing yourself in a book is always special but recognizing yourself when you are a minority in a country where you are so much as a taboo is even more unique. i felt that very deeply into my soul and merely based on that i am willing to put this book into my "favourites". 

we seriously need more queer asian books and i am always willing to take someone up on a recommendation!