5 fucking stars. first of all the writing in this book was so beautiful, i just couldnt stop reading when i picked it up. there are so many words that i want to say about this book but i dont know where to start. I DID NOT EXPECT THIS TO BE GAY???? i started shipping james and oliver since the start but thought i was just delusional AND THEN THEY TURN OUT TO BE ACTUAL LOVERS. the way oliver sacrificed himself for james was just so sad, and the way oliver talked about james to colbrone… they were so in love but never actually talked about it with eachother :( the jumping between the times was so cool and UGH i just cant this book was so good. why the fuck did the ending have to be so sad tho. like i was not expecting that and i was SOBBING when i read it. it was really cool to see how their friendgroup slowly was falling apart because of the guilt from the ‘accident’, how all the characters slowly turned into a similar version of richard. the last words in the book made me wonder for so long, if james is actually still alive..