I honestly don’t know what to think of this book. The story was very original and I was very interested in reading it. The side characters were all so unique and I really wanted to get to know them better. However, the main character was absolutely horrible. And it wasn’t even a “bad guy” character with great development. It was straight up like 280 pages of a straight white teenage boy being an absolute douchebag. And as much as I wanted to sympathize with him at the end of the book and acknowledge that he went through a lot it really wasn’t an excuse. And it made it worse to read from this character’s POV being a terrible human for about 95% of the entire book. I was desperately waiting for character development and for him to realize that he was acting like a complete jerk but it never came and when it did it was just a couple of pages and he was still working hard to be a “good guy”. I appreciated that the side characters called him out for his bullshit and he never really got a chance of redemption which is honestly what he deserves. I really did not like the main character which ruined the book for me since we only got to read from his POV. It’s unfortunate cause I think I would have liked this book a lot more if he wasn’t such a dick or if we read the story from a different POV. Sorry, I just can’t find myself to feel bad for him :/