I might come back and provide a better, more articulate review later. But tbh I think this book has inspired me to stop aiming for perfection and just write down what I'm feeling. This could've gone so very wrong as a story, but the execution is pretty incredible so it doesn't. In spite of all the dark stuff, this book feels like a hug, like even though Charlie is writing to us for someone to listen to, he too is listening to us and allowing us to feel. It really is a communication. I usually hate epistolary narratives cause they feel a bit pointless except for giving validity to worldbuilding, but this really worked for me. Thank you to my friend who recommended this.