J.J. Bola has written a lyrical book that tells the story of Michael, a Congolese born Brit, who has and is battling mental health struggles. The story flips between past time in London and current days in the United States. I found the flipping back and forth a bit of a struggle. I wonder if a continuous timeline would have made it easier for others.

I found that I could relate on a personal level with Michael. As someone who has battled mental health struggles, I found myself nodding with things Michael said or felt. For those who have not struggled with mental health, it is possible that they might not be able to relate to the main character.

Throughout the story, Bola leads the readers down a path that seems certain and then flips the story to the point that I gasped out loud with shock at the turn of events.


This is a heavy heavy book yet so beautifully written that I could not stop listening to the audiobook. I do think the audiobook added a sense of connection with the main character. I found myself talking to Michael throughout the book, telling him to do something or not to do something. I wanted to take Michael by the hand and get him the help that he so desperately needed. I wanted to wrap my arms around Michael and let him know that someone cared for him and his life was worth living. This book gutted me with the emotions that it made me feel.

4.5 stars rounded up to 5.

I received an ARC of this book from NetGalley and Atria in exchange for an honest review. All thoughts & opinions are my own.