This was tough. I had to take a break half way through because I was so sad for Matthew. His life was a mess. How do you give that a rating? Yes, it went back and forth and it wasnt as linear as I had hoped for but it dived deep into his depression, addiction, lonliness. You dont really understand what someone is going through until you actually listen. Not something I would pick up again but it was 100% worth the read.