This book was an absolute emotional roller coaster. The first half of the book is a beautiful, yet sometimes simple, delve into the characters’ personalities, lives, decisions… the author really makes you get to know every tiny bit of these men… the second half of the book was completely and utterly gutting. I literally had to talk it through in therapy. It touches on so many feelings and mental health consequences of my own past, so I feel very personally connected to this story as a whole, but especially to Jude and Willem. Get ready to bawl.