from the first book of this story, I drew upon a story of the sad side of arranging one’s life for the betterment of others and the desperation that comes with escaping expectations, as David seems wont to do. I enjoyed this part thoroughly. along with Yanagihara’s trademark wistfulness, the excitement of a fascinating yet tragic love triangle grabbed me from the get-go. over and over, I panicked at the prospect of everything falling apart under David’s feet, unable to stop reading before finding out what happens next. and while the cliffhanger left me a little disappointed, I resolved not to judge the story before all of it had ended, and that leads me on to Book Two. in the second part of this novel, an interesting choice manifests that promises to connect each story viscerally: the protagonist, whom I expected to be a completely different person, is also named David. not only that, but each important character is also named after a predecessor from Book One: Charles, David’s lover, Edward, David’s father’s friend, even Eden, David’s old, spirited roommate. I was taken aback at the obvious connection, but it worked well to the effect of bringing the stories together and suggesting an unfortunate repetition of history to a yet unknown end. on the sour note of David's father's mental decline and institutionalisation, David's own life can be summed up neatly in one of my favourite quotes from this part:
“no-one was ever free[...] to know someone and to love them was to assume the task of remembering them [...] your life was inextricable from another’s, that a person marked their existence in part by their association with you.” (231)
I connected with this strongly. lives get entangled no matter how hard you try to keep them apart, but that is not a curse, but a blessing. people create hellish nightmares of the lives of everyone around them, or they make lives worth their salt. the difference comes in realising that people are inescapable and that we really don’t have as much control over life as we think we should. and in Book Three, a new Charles tragically crafts the state in which nobody is free and everyone is a suspect, pushing his radical son and exhausted husband from his life in the process. this David's announcement that he will help Charlie escape their dystopia is thrilling and terrifying; is he honest? this is all carried on a silent prayer to close the book that I could not put down or stop thinking about.