I’ve been trying to write a review for this book for the past two days. I’ve found my thoughts turning towards this one constantly. I first heard about this on Litsy, followed by a few random mentions across social platforms and then when Mr S. told me he wanted to read it, I took it as a sign that I needed to read it next.

I think the fact that the book was published posthumously may have affected the reading a bit more for me: it made it more real, tragic, and meaningful. I found throughout the novel, McNamara’s voice and way of writing absolutely engrossing. It was the perfect balance of fact and narration, especially in nonfiction. It absolutely saddens me that this is the only thing she wrote outside of her blog posts. Meticulously researched, I can just imagine how incredible this book would have been, if she’d been able to complete it herself (after her death, fellow amateur investigator “The Kid” and her editor compiled her notes and wrapped it up as best they could). It makes me sad to think we’ve lost such a strong, intelligent voice.

I’ve always loved true crime: novels, podcasts, tv shows, you name it, I’ll consume it. The story of the little known Golden State Killer was an absolute roller coaster of a ride. I ended up reading the book in one sitting I was so hooked. I do caution you, if you pick this up, you may have a similar result. But, by doing so, it will remain with you. I found it very difficult to sleep after reading this book. The subject matter alone is quite harrowing, but it was more the knowledge, that I a naturally cautious citizen, could have easily been a victim. You never think when you read or watch these types of stories, that something like THIS could actually happen to you, and yet after this book, I’m not as secure in this thought.

Growing up, my Mom used to tell my siblings and me, that we would be safe if we were where we were supposed to be, and at a decent time. “Nothing good happens after midnight” was one of her most repeated mantras. I think even as an adult, I’ve always stood by this logic. Always have a buddy system, let someone know where you’ll be, don’t be somewhere late at night by yourself, lock your doors and windows. And yet, this book and serial rapist/murderer, showed that even if you abided by these logical rules you still weren’t safe. Add that the Golden State Killer still hasn’t been caught, and every creak, strange noise at night becomes quite menacing.

With the light of day, and a full 24 hours of processing, I’m still absolutely obsessed with this book, and will be checking out the three part follow up podcast:

https://itunes.apple.com/us/podcast/ill-be-gone-in-the-dark-the-podcast/id1351362434?mt=2

If anything, the touching afterword by McNamara’s widow, Patton Oswalt is enough to merit a five star rating. Do read with a box of tissues.