Loved!! But also kinda disliked reading this book! 

I pretty much blind brought this book after a recommendation from my local book guy, and I have to say this is right up my alley!

Joan was unhinged and so weird. This book was bleak and dreadful and weird but so funny and real, i have to say it was almost perfect

I was promised murder and a disturbing read and that's exactly what i got but

the first actual murder, i think, didn't happen until chapter 32/37, and it wasn't even done by her!! Thankfully, her murder happened shortly after.

this book has also been an incredibly slow read, and im not usually a fan of those but Joan (and of course Taddeo's writing) was so gripping i couldn't stop reading. I adored the way occasionally she talks to "us" very unsettling in the beginning but i will die for a good second pov book

Also?? Talk about being such a huge tease? I generally felt like cuck reading this from the way she kept teasing that she'll murder someone but doesn't actually so it. Tf. So relatable tho!!

Apart from the pregnancy and the whole motherhood thing, this book would've been a perfect and solid 5 star read 

Overall, I'm sorta but also really happy to have read this book!