after finishing, i’m still wondering how differently i would have read this if i was still at my mental low point from a while back. i think i would have connected to the main character more. i felt somewhat detached from the main character until the final part of the book, where i suddenly found myself reading all the nastiest aspects of my own life as if written in a mirror, from multiple characters at that.

“god, i ask you. is trustfulness a sin?”

it was hard to read but i am glad i did. the epilogue made me cry. “everything passes.” man. yeah.