This started st a 4 ⭐️went to a 4.5 ⭐️and by the middle of me writing this review is a 5 ⭐️ would give it a 7⭐️ if i could.
Finished it for 5 days now and i still can’t wrapped my head around it. I don’t know or don’t want to review it it seems so definitive.
This i not the first Jaclyn Osborne book i read. There was some part of the book that i couldn’t focus. It felt too much or unnecessary. Might be because i was grieving in real life or because i already knew the end and i was anticipating it too much. I thought it took to long to get to a point where i would want to devour it like i was at the beginning. And when it picked up for me again i was in it. And i slept at 3 AM on a work day. Through out the book i was doing all the ugly things crying for how they hurt my boy, my baby. Upset at Eryx for crushing Axios spirits again and again. I was so sure he would be the cause of his death and i was ready to fight him if he ever so cried cause Axios died. Mad at Axios for even thinking of hurting Eryx even when i didn’t like him, but also for letting Eryx crush him so many times. I was happy when they had their happy moments. Draw dropping when they have been doing the most. Giggling feet kicking when the 5 of them were being brats. And grieving with them when death knocked at their door. Crying at 3Am in silence while my kids lay beside me when it happened and getting upset at myself because i cried cause i knew what would happen and this was written on my notes “ Oh this is so painful. I hate myself for crying, i knew how it will end but here i am weeping. How foolish why didn’t they save themselves i am so upset”and im still upset grieving 5 days later. I don’t want to leave them behind. That’s what is so difficult i feel like when im done with the review i will be closing the casket and laying them to the ground. I know i will always carry them in my heart. I will still question what if Eryx accepted Axios proposal the first time, what if Axios accepted Eryx proposal at the end. Maybe things would have been different, maybe not…

Best moment: Can i have all of them, everytime Eryx put his hand on Axios when he is having a hard time(the feels).Every scene where they were in their little haven. If you force my hand i would choose the glimpse of them in their home. The peace they got being able to at least have one part of their dream. Before all goes to shit. I wish they could have stayed in that little home. I would also choose the time Eryx bought him to the beach