i'm definitely not the only one to say this is one of the strangest books that i've ever read - right up there with "The Pisces" by Melissa Broder, who funnily enough, wrote a blurb for this book. this was a really fast read, and the writing made it easy to get sucked into the story. there were a lot of things that i really liked about the book, like the conversations about grief, trauma, and how regrets that occur in our lives can deeply effect us and our future relationships. however, i feel like a lot of these themes weren't handled as well as they could have, and i feel like it was kind of just thrown together haphazardly. it's difficult to say who the main character of the story is, and if the whole is better than the sum of its parts. there were some really brilliant parts in here, but a lot more confusing and unnecessary parts, too.

overall i wouldn't say this is a bad book, just a very very strange one that i don't think would work for a lot of people (myself included). there were times when i actually laughed out loud and times when i paused to contemplate my own existence, but it also fell a bit flat for me in the end.