Loved it. Loved it. Loved it. Messy relationship plagued by inescapable grief and a history that can’t just be cast aside with apologies! There were times where Grant and Helen acted so very ugly towards one another in a way that was so real and so steeped in the ugly truth of grief, and I was left reading this, impressed that the author was willing to go there. Survivor’s guilt is not an easy thing to deal with and I really did enjoy the exploration of that—not just in the main relationship, but also through Helen’s relationship with her parents. I think my only criticism is that I didn’t love the sudden onslaught of time-skips near the end of the book, but I’m not letting that get in the way of how much I enjoyed everything else. That 70% breakup? I was fucking sobbing, like I was genuinely about to vomit.