4,5*(tempted to put 5 even though I know it isn’t perfect) I was not expecting this book to be so good and affect me this much omg it’s been so long since I had a physical and emotional reaction to a book. I literally forgot how to breathe. I can’t even explain but the tears stinging my eyes and the chills running down my spine say enough. pat is one of my favourite characters ever written and the love radiates from the pages <3