I read an english translation on ao3 after having found the link on twitter. I believe several people shared the link in the reviews but feel free to hit me up for it. I also downloaded it as an epub so I can keep it for future read in case the translation is ever deleted.
This was quite an emotional read. I think it's very hard to put to words everything about this book because of all the emotions that I got reading it.
It's a beautiful story and I loved the writing. It talks of feelings, of changing and growing, of pain and love. It reminded me of his talks on blue night. So full of care and love, so gentle and coming to ease the pain in a way.
I think I cried the whole time I was reading.
To anyone doubting if they can read it, I would recommend to give it a try. It may be too hard but it might soothe some of your pain. It might give you something new from Jonghyun.
To our precious boy, you did well. I hope you can rest now. I will hold this dear to my heart.