I read this for writing research, because I'm writing a character who is a (very different sort of) nun, and I wanted to get a better grounding in the day-to-day of monastic life and to get a sense of what it feels like to experience a religious calling. I got that, as well as a fascinating look into the drama of a convent descending into toxicity and abuse. I really enjoyed Coldstream's lyrical writing--even when her experience sounded undeniably awful, I still wanted to wander around the convent grounds--and her narration on the audiobook.