This was my first Shae Ruby book and I am throughly impressed! 

Cross my Heart follows the long, emotional journey of Noah and Tyler finding happiness. 

Noah and Tyler first meet when they’re 13. It was practically love at first sight but they were young p, inexperienced and scared, and there was also Scarlett, Noah’s long time best friend and soon to be Tyler’s friend too. 

Okay I’m struggling to write this (have rewritten this so many times) without spoiling too much, while still trying to entice you, and for it to make sense. I’ll try to give you a small break down. The main thing I will tell you is that friendships get tangled, feelings get hurt and you will probably cry. 

Noah, Scarlett and Tyler are the bestest of friends. Noah and Scarlett have been friends since birth and Tyler was new to town but fits in with them immediately. 

We know that Noah is gay. Tyler has never had feelings for a boy before but he falls for Noah instantly while still being confused and scared about it. 

As they grow up, the feelings become stronger but both are scared to admit it to each other. But Scarlett isn’t and makes a move on Tyler first, all while knowing how Noah feels. 

What ensues is a decade long battle of Noah wanting Tyler, Tyler wanting Noah and nothing but stolen moments between them behind Scarlett’s back. Tyler is scared to admit his feelings, he doesn’t want to hurt Scarlett or lose his friends but he can’t stay away from Noah either. Noah constantly pushes Tyler away in order to protect himself when Tyler won’t commit to anything. But when Noah gets hurt, it forces Tyler to make a choice between them and who he really wants. 

This book put my emotions through the wringer! My heart hurt so much for these two! You can see how much they love each other but they both keep doing the wrong thing and hurting each other. I did not like Scarlett at all, yes I felt bad about them going behind her back but she knew how Noah felt and basically did everything with Tyler as some sort of spite to Noah. She had this “pick me” energy that I hated. 

This book also deals with military ptsd after a devastating loss, so check your triggers before reading as it gets quite confronting and graphic. 

All in all I loved it! Noah and Tyler had me gripped and while it was a slightly toxic situation, the love they had for each other was beautiful and their happy ending was everything I wanted it to be!