On a scale of 1-This Fucking Family, how badly do you handle grief?

This is one of those books where I get why a lot of people liked it, but I simply didn't. It was well written with some absolutely killer imagery and a strong undercurrent of emotion. I just think that the story went in a direction that I was not a fan of. 

I really quite liked all the bits with Monstrilio himself. He was a really fun character, while still undoubtedly being a monster and something I'd probably kill with a shovel. The story really lost interest for me when he took on his humanoid form for the second half of the book. M, as he's referred to now, goes about being autism coded, having kinky sex, and then inevitably falling off the horse and killing a person. His family continuously protects him and helps him hide his murders and it was about the time that they were fleeing Germany that I really started just scratching my head and asking what exactly we were doing here. 

Specifically, what's the message the author is trying to convey here? Because it was a hell of a choice to make Monstrilio transform into a young autistic gay man and then have him predatorily hunger after other men. Like, i guess it was nice his family supported him through all that, but sheesh... 

Speaking of the family, Magos and Joseph were just the worst. I found Magos to be insufferable, pretentious, and stubborn to a fault, and Joseph had no spine to speak of and continously lied to his fiance. I think the only family member I really enjoyed was Uncle Luke, just due to how absolutely balls to the wall he was in supporting M's habits. Dude's like, "Yeah, sometimes you get the urge to kill people. It's what ya do." 

I've thought about ending this on something pithy, but nothing will come to me. I simply wasn't a fan of this.