I feel conflicted about this one, specifically it's portrayal of disability. I kept reading, hoping something would change, but was left disappointed. I appreciate that the author's doing a series with MCs with visible disabilities on the cover, but the words and phrases used in the book about the character's partial paralysis and wheelchair use sometimes miss the mark. He clearly had a lot of unresolved feelings and insecurities about his accident and how it changed his life, and I'm pretty sure words like wheelchair-bound, crippled, and others with negative connotations were mostly if not all from him, but the way other people in his life brought things up bothered me as well. From what I could tell, the characters were all saying things from a place of caring and concern, making sure she really accepted him and wasn't going to hurt him, but it could have been better and made me question her experience with disability or whether she got sensitivity readers. I'm also trying to keep in mind that the author is from Germany and writing in a language that may not be their first/main one could play into things (especially as, from experience with someone I knew, German people tend to be frank and blunt in a way North Americans assume is rude when it isn't meant to be). It's unfortunate, because I do think some aspects were really well done: the fat rep was great, the spice was really good, and way the MCs communicate was beautiful. As a disabled person myself (different disability and different mobility aid), I really appreciated the way the FMC asked clarifying questions instead of offering or insisting on help, and found considerate ways to adapt and accommodate without him having to ask (the way she automatically started touching his neck and playing with his hair while they walked together, and how he thanked her later because he was always disappointed he'd never be able to hold a partner's hand while on the move was so lovely). However,  because I'm not okay with the way the negative language makes it seem like being disabled is a negative thing people have to look beyond, this is the first book in quite a while that I contemplated DNFing all the way through and I won't be reading more by the author (even though a small part of me wants to try another to see if it was just this character's view of himself, or is a pattern).