Holy smokes! Rachael Tonks is a new author to me, and man am I glad I decided to give it a try! This book was fantastic! It had all the feels. I was very close to tears a few times, on the edge of my seat with heart pounding at others. But it wasn't all heart-in-your-throat drama. There were also some really funny moments and some seriously romantic scenes.

Caleb is the mysterious boy next door who hardly ever speaks and keeps to himself. He only ventures out when he needs to.
Amber is this feisty, strong, confident girl who is intrigued by her neighbour. Why won't he talk to her? What happened to him to make him this way?

I love that we were kept guessing right up until the very end. I love the way the relationships between each of the characters developed and intensified. I really felt for the characters and the things that had made them who they were. I had a rough idea of what I thought was going to be the story behind Caleb, but I was shocked when we finally uncovered his past.

I'm not gonna lie, there are some really disturbing things in this book that may be a trigger for some people.
That being said, I loved this book. I will definitely be reading more from this author.

Blurb
Caleb

I’m a monster.
What I did in my past will forever haunt me.
I don’t deserve anything but pain after all I've done. No love. No happiness.
Knowing I didn't deserve love didn't stop me from wanting it. From wanting her.
The first time my eyes laid sight on her, I was captivated. As much as I try to fight the want, I can’t get her out of my head. She consumes every part of my mind.
I can’t stay away. I don't want to stay away.
But I know the minute she finds out about my past, about where I’ve been and what I’ve done, she will hate me.

Amber

Starting a new life in Portland with my best friend, I never expected to meet anyone. I didn't want to either. But then my path collided with his. The dark, steely eyed man that hides away from the world. Caleb is an absolute mystery, keeping everything locked away and hidden.
I need more. Want more.
He’s an addiction for me. A drug I can’t and don't want to withdraw from.
I'm determined to know all he's hiding.


When the fire of their passion collides with his hidden past, Amber must decide to let him endure the pain alone or burn with him.

**WARNING**
This book contains scenes of graphic sex and violence. May contain triggers for some readers.