This book is soooooo fucked up. Loved it. I think this is the first thriller I'm rating 5 stars, we'll see if it remains a 5 star as time passes but. Damn. It really hit! So much of this book is about guilt, shame, and motherhood. Things I relate to even though I'm not a woman and will never have children. The fear that I would be a bad mother because of my brain and my body is honestly what led me to put down the hope of ever raising children with someone and man...this book just hits different w that perspective!