4.5 (this will be heavy)

I thoroughly enjoyed this. this has been in my tbr for a while, im not sure where I found it but I always heard good things. recently, I bought the book, not even knowing what it was about because I had come across a quote that I really resonated with. my goal this year is to find more books that I relate to, especially at this time. im really glad i came across this one. 

it was beautifully written, I loved everything about it. It was also fast paced which is so good for my little brain right now. The story was simple but really interesting. I do wonder though how different I would feel if I didn't relate to it. I didn't lose my mom, but I lost someone very close with me and theres this sense of connection and relatability between every single person that is grieving someone they loved very deeply. I only realized this after everything happened and I talked to others who are grieving. I think this is why these books are helping me so much because even though they aren't about real people, the emotions are very real and its like a safe space. 

some things i really liked about this book, the little details is how realistic is was. the main character was STRUGGLING but sometimes shed be having a somewhat good day. there were so many parts that were so relatable because sometimes she'd just be living and the next moment, the grief would hit out of nowhere. its so accurately depicted that I wonder if the author has lost someone herself. i cant explain it well because i definetly don't have a way with words but i enjoyed the writing form because it felt like we were feeling Casey's emotions with her. i was also happy reading it and then would get whiplash the next second. 

the love triangle