an interesting exploration into desires, validation and illness that forms within the blossoming that is womanhood.

this was odd, relatable, unhinged at its finest. there were parts of the book—more specifically the elaboration on eating disorder through the narrative of the main character’s thoughts—i related to way more than i thought i would. it’s one of the aspects that factors into me taking my time with this one as it felt almost like a mirror i dare not look into it too long myself, afraid that i will dissolve, disappear within those reflections of the ghosts from my past. definitely a book i would recommend checking the trigger warnings out before reading as broder’s exquisite writing conveys the character’s feelings so brilliantly and realistically that it almost reminded me of myself in my darkest of times. i’m not saying it was bad but it wasn’t that good either, but it was an experience indeed.