I understand now why everyone's been raving about this. You are so used to seeing stars as just that, stars. Someone you watch on the tv and grow up with and feel like you know them. This gives such a personal deep look at what actually goes on. Sure not everyone has the same experience, but a lot of similar experiences occur. I think the biggest thing was how when looking back it is clear how abusive everything was. How every little thing fed into all the issues that would stick with her through the rest of her life.

From a young age, you can see how her ED was such a focus in her life and how it controlled her but also how it was the only thing she could control and it is not an easy thing to read. Especially when you have seen and know the struggles. It definitely isn't easy to read and see someone go through it. It never gets easier. But also her entire relationship with her mom was so hard to read through. In certain moments I had times when I related to her dynamic with her mom. While at the same time completely different. It really is just really well to show that just because she is your mother doesn't mean that she is excused from treating you the way she does. That you are not allowed to criticize her, not allowed to call them out on their bullshit, that all they are is this perfect being who you should be grateful for. When in reality it's never that black and white. It's not that simple, nothing ever is. Moms are just as human as everyone else. 

Though this also shows that for one, family is more than just blood. Just because you are related to them doesn't mean they are your family, they are the ones who are supposed to be with you.  I honestly don't have a lot to say, this book just really makes me reflect a lot and makes me realize that I need to go focus on myself, not on what everyone expects of me. To go focus and discover what I actually want and wish to do. That it shouldn't be about pleasing anyone else. Life is a journey and everyone's path is different, you shouldn't compare yourself.