This was one crazy ride!

I kinda want to do that:

to everyone so that everyone can experience the wonders of this book and come to me to gush about it?

I am not gonna do it -mostly because i just don't have the energy to throw a book like that!- but still go pick it up and just trust me, and thank me later after you manage to pick up your jaw of the floor after finishing it!


Now normally i am very good at knowing pretty early on where the mysteries are heading, what will be happing and if a murder happens who done it.

Yeah... this book kept me so complete in the dark i had no idea where the heck i was heading for most of the book! IT WAS FREAKING FANTASTIC!

Defiantly one of the best done mysteries i have read in YEARS!

I loved the writing!
It has fantastic pacing, its just the right amount of slow crawling and rapidly speeding through specific moments that it adds this "just one more chapter!" kind of franticness to the book!
I also love the short chapters because it makes it even harder to stop and not say "Just one more chapter!" because each chapter is at the most 4 pages long!


I love the crazy main character
Because lets just be honest Anna is crazy, not because she is Agoraphobic or because of what happened to make her Agoraphobic (which by the way if you don't know what that is, its among other things the inability to leave your house or your "chosen safe space", but in this case Anna can't leave her house at all!) even though that could have and maybe would have made a real person go crazy.

Anna is crazy because she decides that she should marinate herself in at least two bottles of wine everyday while also taking about the amount of handful of pills that are supposed to help her.

ANYONE that takes medication with alcohol is crazy!

Say what you will, but you can not get me to sway on that!

Anyways... Anna is still a fantastic character!
She is smart and resourceful and knows what she should be doing and tries... but at the same time she is clearly having so many issues and troubles and problems and has no idea which one is going to take precedence on any given day. So she is a fantastic character to follow along in a mystery because half the time she doesn't even know herself what the heck is happening... so how should the reader know what is actually going on?


I also loved how this book build so very slowly up to the heart racing, on the edge of the seat, book gripping, speed reading kind of ending that i was not at all prepared for. Because dear god were those last 50 to a 100 pages a wild rollercoaster ride!


I can see why people would have issues with the 100+ pages until something actually "mysterious" happens and for some readers the actual story begins than. I personally enjoyed the not knowing where this was going but clearly being able to see that the author seemed to have a very clear plan on what she was doing with her story, the plot and the characters in it so the slower character depended start made a lot of sense.
Also i love getting to know character that have health issues so i didn't mind at all that i got a lot of pages to hear about Anna and what her live is like inside her house.


I also love that this book has more than one twist!
I mean i saw one of them coming, but the actual ending? that was such a surprise i am kinda still picking my jaw of the floor!
And i think that this multi-layered mystery twists things was done so purposefully and so elegantly and brilliantly that while you read this book you really do think after some time, you have it figure out! You know what is going on

that Anna's family is dead, that she is imagining it all in some way, that maybe there was something happening with her neighbours but it might not have been as dramatic as she made it out because in the introduction chapter we are thrown into the story with her anticipating a cheater being discovered and counting down the seconds until that happens. So clearly she craves drama, so maybe she actually did imagine it all? Its possible! She is imagining her family being alive and calling her after all!

But at the same time there is always so many questions that the author sprinkled throughout the story so far that make no sense with that conclusion so in some way I knew something more was going on but just... wow!

I LOVED how this all evolved into this epic-ness that is this book.

I also LOVED that in this book Anna is not at any point miraculously healed from her issues.
Sorry if you see that as a spoiler, but i personally see that as a selling point for this book!
Because if you are someone that has any kind of chronic issue -and i am counting any kind of problem into that that can not be "healed" in a short time frame! best mentally, physically or a combination of both!- its the most horrendous thing to read a book about a real issue a lot of people struggle with and ending it in a way that is completely unrealistic, for example letting Anne be able to leave her house without issues at any point during this book! (sorry again if that sounds like a spoiler to you, i couldn't see how, but sorry anyway if you think so)
I just loved that the author actually wrote a book where the main character was suffering with an illness and let her be realistic throughout the entire thing with it. that was beautiful!

There are, as i already mentioned a few things in this book i didn't love as much.
The already mentioned alcohol consumption while also chucking medications, especially since Anna knows that its not good or okay or even in any way or form what she should be doing!
But at the same time this book doesn't try to talk it pretty, it just shows that there are people in Anna's position that really do what she is doing in the book.
So on one hand i hated how easy and natural the book makes it seem to mix those two drugs together and pretend its okay to do so.
But at the same time this book also clearly shows that its not okay at all... so it done a good job in that way as well? I am conflicted? Because for a lot of the book i just wanted to reach into it and smash that stupid red wine bottle over Anna's head! But at the same time i understood why the author choose to do it in that way?
As i said... conflicted!


And as much as i LOVED that climax and finally of the book...
at the same time we got this huge build up with the over 300 pages of it, so i kind of wished we would have gotten a bit more of a detailed walk through of how it all wrapped up!

how the police reacted when Anna called them, telling them to come, since they all clearly think she is crazy. How they reacted when they find a body of a 17 year old in her house, after believing she is completely bonkers and gone down the deep end especially with the family of that boy! So did they arrest her and than found out, when they went to talk to the Dad of the boy and he confessed, what actually happened? Or did they just believe her right away without everyone automatically assuming that she killed a kid because she's crazy?
Because i would have loved to get more details of that night and how that went after the big stuff is over. And i think that would have fitted into the book very well.

But oh well can't get everything we always want in one book i guess.
And this book is pretty close to the perfect mystery to me personally so thats okay!


All in all i clearly loved this book!
I was skeptical when i started, since it just had to much potential to be great in my eyes and i was disappointed by those types of book way to often in the last years, but this book delivered, and it delivered big time!


HIGHLY RECOMMEND!!