I don't think I've ever been in more pain than when I was reading this novel. It's been one hell of a ride and not a good one. I love a good healing journey as much as the next person, but let me tell you this was anything but that. Nesta spent so much time learning but I felt like we just went backward in the story. And all the characters didn't feel like the ones we got to know. Every time we saw Nesta make progress it was done in such a way that I couldn't even be happy about it. It seemed so out of the left field and then immediately followed by a smut scene... LIKE THAT'S NOT HOW IT WORKS BESTIE. 

Though the ending pissed me off the most.

Like first of all them participating in the blood rite AND WINNING LIKE THAT?! AFTER A FEW MONTHS OF TRAINING?!?!? WHAT ABOUT THE ILLYIAN WOMEN WHO HAVE BEEN TRAINING?! They both train for about 2 hours so what made nesta and her gang better? I don't like that. ALSO FEYRE'S DEAL OMG! First of all, I didn't like that she was pregnant, but also the idea that she might "die"??? like why wouldn't she just shapeshift??? like there is no way that posses a greater treat than idk the baby dying?!?!?!?

Honestly I think the plot point of Feyre and Rhys was done so they wouldn't take care of it. So that Nesta could "step up" idk I didn't enjoy it. I could rant about everything I didn't like for hours honestly. I just didn't enjoy that it was Feyre's story but different, like same metaphors, same struggles, same journey with no difference. I also think that Cassian deserves better. 

Though Emrie was pretty cool, I loved her. She's a win in my book. 

To me this was just a bad fanfic/fever dream. I do not count this as cannon even if it is. 🤣 

And not to say that Nesta's journey isn't important, it is. Healing is. And her trauma is so valid as well. But it felt like SJM just tried to force a narrative that didn't work that well.