"We were behaving exactly like people behaved, there was nothing wrong that I could name, but for some reason I wasn't feeling that unalone feeling you were supposed to have with someone else. Was there anything joining me to my life that was a matter of necessity rather than chance? It wasn't my body, which could be moved from place to place, job to job, fed nearly anything, partnered with anyone. It wasn't my mind, which seized the fake lives of television people with greater enthusiasm than it did its own."