"Gadd  Am I gay? Am I straight? Am I something in between?
  If Teri’s trans what does that make me? That’s the thing when you doubt yourself,you feel like everyone else knows – like they’re waiting to catch you out.

Gadd  But when Martha turned up, that insecurity faded. I became known as the guy with the mad doter who sat at the end of the bar. Gossiping toothers about how manly I was. How tough I was. How strong and rugged Iwas. How brave.

Gadd  Martha saw me the way I wanted to be seen."

"Gadd Anger over my sexuality. Anger over the abuse. Anger that Iwasn’t who I said I was. Who I pretended to be."

Martha Email "Anyway, the reindeer was cuddlym. Had big lips, huge eyes and the cuutest wee bum.You are the twin of that reindeer. I still have it to this day!!!! It was the only good thing about my childhood. I’d hug it when they fought. it means so much to me. you mean so much to me. its fifty-one years old!!!!!!!!!!! ivegotta go."