I really loved this book, and it’s definitely an upper 4 stars for me. It embodied trans rage in the exact way I wanted, and I loved watching Benji come into his own and take his revenge. I loved the conversations it had about fitting into the world as a trans person, as an autistic person, and the criticism of religion, but also the nuances it took in those discussions; not all religious people are the same, not all trans people are the same, etc. As a trans masc person and an autistic person I felt both Benji’s and Nick’s struggles with my entire chest, and just thought this book encapsulated the experiences perfectly. 

The reasons it didn’t get a five are twofold. One is completely a me problem - although I really liked lots of the writing and descriptions, I didn’t quite gel with the writing style, I think because I’m just growing out of YA. Secondly, I wanted just a little bit out of the ending. I think the main battle was done interestingly, but I wanted it to take up a little more space, and also see a little more of the aftermath. I think the relationship between Nick and Benji didn’t come to a peak because of the slightly abrupt ending as well.

Still, I loved this book, and if you can handle the trigger warnings, I’d definitely recommend.