Holy fuck this is EXCELLENT and I have never been more devestated to discover that what I just read was an author's debut! Do you like dark romance? Are you looking for actually good polyamory rep?? Do you want to read something deliciously fucked up with a trans main character and an MMM relationship? READ THIS RIGHT NOW! BUY A MILLION COPIES SO SERA QUIM CAN WRITE ME MORE CONTENT ASAP!!! 

Okay, to set you up for success, I think you will like this if you are into: mafia romance, a lot of smut along with your romance, and love interests who will kill anyone who threatens the people they love. There is something so delicious about a main character who expects to be treated roughly and abandoned but is instead treated with devotion and tenderness by hands that kill. Truly no one is out here writing romance like queer dark romance authors. Sera Quim you are my new fav!! Jude, Ash and Beau live rent free in my brain now and I hope we get to see more of them if Sera Quim decides to write more stories in the same setting. I want only good things for these wonderful men 🥺🤲

Definitely mind the trigger warnings on this one folks! This one is not for people who dislike age gaps or struggle with messy trauma coping mechanisms and recovery. The author's content warnings are super thorough though, so I included them all in the content warning section of the review. Also worth noting that the sexual assault is off screen and not between the main character and love interests. However, it SUPER affects the plot and relationships and the abuse is ongoing. This is firmly a HEA where (ending spoiler):

Jude and his new partners get to kill his abusers which we always love to see.

The Smut Includes: Oral sex, frottage, somnophilia (undiscussed), facesitting, anal sex, vaginal sex, cum eating, rimming, fisting, voyeurism, aftercare