this book hit home for me. like, really hard. i feel like lucy has been living my life? i cannot explain it but it's so similar but also so different. and i miss my susannah. 

it's so strange how easy this book read. it felt too long but also it went by very fast. the writing was pretty neat too, i liked how it was as if i was reading lucy's diary. 

i think this is my first *serious* book about lesbians that is non YA or some sh*t like that and it was great! also a debut? wow. i seriously appreciated that there was no smut in it, nothing vulgar, just feelings and that was absolutely enough. we need more such books. i related to most of  the book and i don't know how i feel about that because most of the situations were sad. but I'm just another queer person who hasn't moved on but is with somebody and it's so weird to see myself in a book like that! I've related to some books before in many different ways but this almost feels too personal? ik, ik, i don't have

the happy ending that the two girls had

, but! it was a nice little dream in my imagination. god bless people like martin btw! i want a friend like him. 

i don't know why but i cannot give this book exactly 5*. something was missing... but 4,5* is still good! :) nice book for queer people. <3

Edit: I'm giving the book 0,25 points more because i had a dream of my love and i miss them. I know it's because of this book and i am thankful for it although it hurts like hell.