I. AM. NOT. OKAY.

I finished this book, stared at my laptop screen for a good 10 minutes, realising that "Oh. This series is finished." , stared at the book and bawled. Like full-on-snots-tears-bawling bawled. It was a hideous sight, I ate dinner and now I'm processing everything that had just happened in less than 48 hours it took for me to finish this book.

“It doesn't matter what the truth is. What matters is a narrative they will find acceptable. Believable.

Who will look for you when you're the one who dissapears”

This was every bit tiring and heartbreaking. It sucked out the energy in me and I'm just left with this hollow shell after finishing this. I was crying my eyes out, I get scared for Pip and worst of all, the pain and emotions of this book is so raw. The amount of times I was crying and wishing for everything to be okay for Pip in here was just unbelievable. And I can't help but applaud, Holly Jackson, for finishing this series with a huge bang. It answered every question, it tied up all loose ends nicely and it had left a scar on me. I refuse to believe that this series had finished but it did and I'm writing this with so much pain in my heart.

To be honest, I don't know how will I rate this book. I've slept through it, woke up again and still found that I don't know how to rate it. Was it a 5