It took me longer than usual to finish this book because I had to take a few breaks inbetween. I heard about the book quite a lot on BookTok was well as on instagram but never really knew what it was about. So please check the trigger warnings for this book because this could be really triggering to a lot of people out there.

I‘m glad that it wasn‘t triggering for me, but the topic is still a hard one. Before I go into the plot I want to mention how good the writing of this is. The author has a way with words that really captivates you and puts you right there with the main character. It‘s told from Vanessa‘s point of view which is absolutely perfect for this book. It pained me to read how Vanessa thought of herself throughout the book and how a young girl can get so manipulated, that she really thought she wanted everything that had happened to her. She was groomed by her teacher when she was just 15 and it talks about how she copes with everything and the relationship between her, the teacher throughout the years. It jumps from the past into the present with each chapter which I thought was genius for telling the story. Sadly it‘s something that happens in the world way too often and obviously sometimes the girls that were groomed really feel the way Vanessa felt about it all. It‘s an heartbreaking but important book that hopefully opens up a conversation about the topic. Honestly this book will stay with me forever, that‘s for sure. I don‘t really know how to express what that book made me feel and how much I already thought about the book while reading it and the things that run through your mind while reading it. I feel like everyone who can handle the triggers should read this, to maybe even understand victims of grooming can feel like and how conflicted they might feel about their abuse.