I have so many feeling after finishing Mister Magic by Kiersten White. On one hand, I want to write a profound review, on the other I just want to say that reading this book ended up as a very personal experience that got me sobbing in the end. I can't remember the last time I cried this hard to a book as I did with the epilogue. And I knew how it will end! Well, I hoped it will end like that, and I wasn't wrong.

Anyway, if you've read Candle Cove creepypasta or Two Truths and a Lie by Sarah Pinsker, Mister Magic is a spin on that mysterious children program everyone seemes to have watched and remembered yet... It starts with the engaging mystery of the children's show Mister Magic and its last season, the reasons of the sudden cancellation, and what happened to the child actors after it. It delves deep into childhood nostalgia, parental responsabilites and how twisted the relationship can get when the parents' expectations don't meet with the reality, exploatation of children, control, and it's a heavy but subtle exploration of religious trauma. The final result is a very creepy, unsettling story with loveable characters that kept me on my edge and worried for the same characters, while simultaneously angry at the system explored. Especially when you take into consideration who chooses what is normal and acceptable, and how that ends up being used against queer lives.

Loved every moment of it. It got to me because it plays with my deep fears and anxieties, so the book freaked me out. The narration done by Rebecca Lowman was amazing, especially her performance of the Interviewer which was so chilling I was internally screaming at the characters to get out of there.