Where do I even start? I went into reading this only knowing some strange spoilers that sounded so crazy out of context you wouldn't believe they are real and a few content warnings. I came out of it with tear stained cheeks and a new found love for rou bao bu chi rou's writing. Watching Mo Ran and Chu Wanning grow as character's was lovely and so was watching their relationship blossom. I live for toxic bl. The plot also constantly kept me on my toes. For all the times I happened to guess what was coming next there was also times I was completely suprosed by what came next. All of the side characters were also lovely and had so many beautiful moments. That being said this book is NOT for the weak. I cried every few chapters and many chapters had me feeling like the author ripped out my heart and stomped on it before ripping it to shreds. If possible I recommend finding a buddy to read this with so you can share the pain. I cant wait to read more of the author's work as erha has set the bar incredibly high.